Jay-Z’s Mom Gloria Carter Says He Cried When She Came Out to Him

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    A couple of months after its release, 4:44 stands as perhaps JAY-Z‘s most nakedly honest album to date. The project finds Hov exploring dimensions of he hadn’t in previous projects, with one of them being the fact that his mother, Gloria Carter, is a lesbian. He makes the reveal on his touching song “Smile,” and in a recent conversation on the D’USSE Friday podcast, Hov’s mother details the moment she explained her sexual orientation. Apparently, it brought him to tears.

    “Me and my son, we share a lot of information,” says carter at around the 24:40 mark of her convo with Axelrod, Jay’s nephew Rel Carter, and Roc Nation’s Nashawn Carter. “So I was sitting there and I was telling him one day. I just finally started telling him who I was. Besides your mother, this is the person that I am, you know? This is the life that I lived. So my son started actually, like, tearing because he was like, ‘That had to be a horrible life, ma.’ I was like, ‘My life was never horrible. It was just different.’ So that made him want to do a song about it.”

    Gloria wasn’t exactly with the idea for “Smile” when Hov approached her with the song idea, but eventually she decided to help him out with it.

    “We talked about it and we talked about it,” Gloria reveals. “Then I was going out to see him, and I was on the plane, and I was like, ok, I’m going to help him. If we’re going to do it. I wrote [the poem] while I was on the plane going to LA. When I got there, I was like, ‘Yo, I’m going to help you along.’ So I gave him this. So I said ‘look at this’ and he was like, ‘Wow, you wrote this on the plane?’”

    From there, Hov asked his mom to read the poem for him on the plane as he recorded it. That’s how it ended up being the outro for “Smile.”

    A bit later on in the interview, Gloria explains that “Smile” made it so people could focus on other bits of her identity rather than her status as a gay woman. “I don’t have to worry about anyone wondering whether I’m in the life or not,” she said. “I’m gonna tell them. So now that I’ve told you what do you have to talk about? So now maybe you can focus on the phenomenal things that I do. So focus on that.”

    Listen to the whole conversation below.

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